I'm Nicola and i'm a thirty-something year old mom of two. I started ispeakmom.com in 2014 as a personal blog. It was a way for me to express the words that I couldn’t speak out loud, because I was just too emotional. My transition to motherhood was a turbulent one. In my pregnancy there were beautiful moments, but there were many difficult ones. Eventually my miracle of a son was born at 30 weeks at just 2.5lbs. He struggled, I struggled, and we struggled as a family for 3 months before he came home with us. When he was about 8 months old I began writing our story in the form of blog posts. I was amazed at the outpouring of love and support from family and friends. But even more than that, I was taken aback by how many women got in touch with me to tell me about the trials and triumphs of their own motherhood journeys.
I took some time off from blogging when I became pregnant with my daughter, but I already knew that when I started back writing, my mission would be different. I didn’t want to just share my story. I wanted I Speak Mom to become a platform for mothers to share their own incredible motherhood journeys and moments, the painful ones and beautiful ones as well. There is power in sharing, it has a therapeutic quality, but more importantly, when we share, we allow others to see themselves reflected in us and know that they are not alone. We are all sisters on this motherhood ride and although our paths and struggles may be different, there is so much that we all have in common.
Recently, I’ve had people ask me why I don’t share as much about my own story anymore. The truth is that I’m still sharing, but from the point that I’m at right now. Everything I have been through as a "preemie" and "CHD" mom managing a baby and a toddler, has brought me to this point. I’m at the stage of rebuilding and uncovering who I am after a major storm in my life. The storm changed everything about my life and left me depleted. But here I am, the blessed mother of two beautiful children, nourishing my body, mind and soul to be the best version of myself, the new version of myself. I have a long way to go still, but I’m taking it one step at a time and hope to inspire many other moms along the way.
I’ve taken my therapeutic writing to a higher level, and for most of 2017 I have been diving deep into the caves of my memory, to record the story of how my motherhood journey began. It’s an emotional yet healing process that is taking much longer than I anticipated (hahaha). But I’m hoping to be able to share my heart with you all in the form of a memoir in 2018.
In the mean time I hope you enjoy your visit to my little corner of the internet and I hope you come back again!
You can read more about my personal motherhood journey here:
One Grateful Mom
A Broken Heart Heals Fast
Happy Ending Envy
I hope you enjoy your visit!