My Son Stands Out...
I sat nervously in the viewing area, peering through the glass. The air was filled with the smell of chlorine and the sounds of little feet hitting water, splishes, splashes and delightful screams. I was 2 months postpartum and finally able to visit the “parent and me” swim class that my husband had started with our 2 year old while I was recovering from my C-Section.
I wasn’t crazy about the idea. My inner germo-phobe had visions of snot and other bodily fluids making their way into the pool, as so often is the case with little kids. I didn’t want him to get sick and usually avoided it as much as I could! But that wasn’t why I felt nervous that day. Our once preemie little boy is rather small for his age. In fact, even now he still fits into 18 month clothes. Eating is not on his list of things to do and it shows in his bony little body. He is in speech and physical therapy (though mostly caught up now for his age) and evidence of his open heart surgeries lies blatantly on his chest.
I imagined other kids pointing out his scar and making faces. I imagined other moms in their cliques whispering about his skinniness in “judgy” voices. I wondered if the tales of his difficult beginning in life would be apparent to all. I wondered if he would stand out.
When the class started, I leaned my tense body in further so I could have a better look. He was in his father’s arms ready to begin. Within minutes he was splashing, playing with water toys and following along with the routine of the class. My body began to relax and my lips curved upwards into a smile. My “mommy insecurities” melted and my heart filled with pride as I noticed that he did indeed stand out… He stood out because his “ear to ear” smile lit up the room like sunshine on a summer day. He stood out because his infectious giggles filled the air and his little eyes were shining brightly. He stood out because he sang “The Wheels of the Bus” louder than any other kid in the class. He stood out because he was clearly having a blast. He stood out because he is amazing!
I knew that day that while we have our challenges and struggles, our son will be more than fine. In fact, he's a superstar! His personality is so strong and so bright that it makes him shine. It’s hard to focus on his little weaknesses when his strengths are so outstanding. My son stands out…and I am so extremely proud of him!
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